FIRST KISS

Picture this -
A first kiss
A Moment of bliss
A fleeting touch
Can mean so much


A moment's surrender
Can a lifetime of dreams engender?


You never regret
And never forget
It's one you can't miss
Your very first kiss

MY DEMONS

I allowed your demons to become my demons

I allowed beautiful lies became beautiful truths

The so called “lovemaking

With no emotions and feelings

Each time left me feeling even more empty

Than the time before

Legs wrapped around the idea of love

Your demons released in me, but deeper each time



The meaningless and emotionless sex took away from me

It took away from my soul and my spirit

Your demons slowly killed me on the inside

Giving me false realities

That I started hating inside out

Hating myself and everything about me

Feeling that I was feeling what you felt for me



The mirror and I were not friendly

So much I avoided looking at her at all costs

Until one day I caught a glimpse of myself

Every emotion over came me

That crying was the only option and cure

I hated the woman that was looking back at me

Wounded, hurt and broken



I had to pick up the pieces of my spirit and soul

And put myself back together

Leaving you alone was for the better

Breaking down and falling apart

So that I could fall together and break through



Believe it or not saved my life and helped me

release those demons

Rebuilding and reinventing myself

Took some time and I’m still working on me

But I’m loving the clever man that I am becoming



For the first time in a long time

I can say that I love me

And I love what I see when I look in the mirror

For the first time I can say I’m a gentleman
And I feel it….

Your demons are no longer my demons

And I am free

Blessed and thankful to be here

I am finally happy…

And I am finally free…!!


© Babour66

HOPELESS TALE

We all write what we want

I'll write about the life of ants if i want 

It doesn't matter that I stand alone

It makes no difference where i run to

Or where i was chased from

In sweet Times i hear good Times

Maybe they are lovelights

From the streets amidst the market sales

Let there be a story, not a hopeless tale

DESTINY

Through all the trials of life

And all the struggle and strife

I cannot help but to help this gloom

And I cannot save you from your fucking
doom


Life is a lesson learned and not taught

For all the feelings I hold on the inside

And all the curses that lead to suicide

What about the past or future

What about the path to make things better

Is this really me or the reasoning behind what’s lost?


As the blood under my skin burns and turns black

Time seems to break me down to the past

Doomsday is a state of mind that I cannot control

Faith is just another reason that love can be Sold

All this time I survived and really thought I fought

Can my undying love really ever last forever

And can my soul ever really accept the answer

Before me everything I love has died

Can anyone even see that I have tried

What about my own haunted thoughts

Nobody has ever really cared

And everyone seems a little scared

Sure my destiny is supposed to have a time and place

But it sure as hell aint something to embrace

I am defeated and I cannot take this very long



So my answers will never have questions

My questions will never be answered

I am nothing but alone and scarred

Razors through veins? Has its gone too far

Look at me with your ice cold stares and you know


Time has taken everything I ever loved

What is left besides emptiness too show

Rushing to the end because I am fucking done

Not having a destiny is the destiny that I am
supposed to love and embrace



I am standing on the edge

Knowing if I jump I will not leave a god damn trace

What do you think about me now

I don’t know what or how

Some kind of god I am supposed to understand



The only thing I understand is I am no man

I love you but I hate myself

I know I put me in this spell

I know your pain but do you really know mine



I’ll be ready to die and tell you I am fine

I love the world and everything that’s not me

And my destiny has no say in what’s to be..

Destiny... A tale in disguise.

THE COURSE OF A LIFETIME

There are more hours of darkness
than light

If you are awake for them

But in the hour of darkness,

Light is just a switch

From shadow

If you want to flip

Where there is light

There is the presence of darkness

The brighter the sun

The deeper the shadow

where there is darkness

There is the presence of light



If you know to look

The blacker the night,

The brighter the stars…

O the epiphanies of those dark hours!

O the presence of light!



At a performance of the shadow play

You do not watch the puppet

But the shadow of the puppet

That is considered reality

The life you have and hold

with him


Is a shadow play, a performance

The great adventure

The great drama

The great silhouette of reality

I know the story

But continue to watch

From the wings…

I am a poor puppet

Examining my own shadow

In the play of life



I see each dark movement magnified

Each dark monologue amplified

But at the edge

Of my open eye

Even on the blackest night

There is the sometimes faint

Sometimes fierce

Radiance of heroic stars.

UNBROKEN HEART

A time to reflect the beginning of an untamed soul

Look into a mirror

Tell me who is in control

Life draws endings closer for a heart worth much more

Falling apart seems the answer of a charitable curse

Breaking down again

A brand new sin

Questions seem to wonder only making things worse

Thinking back a long long time to an unbroken heart

Listening and hoping

Loving and believing

Oh but then things got so hard and grew so far apart

Like a child lost without a way to fly

Like a vision of easy ways

Someone counting stormy days

While others sit around just to wonder why

Such a broken insecure time of relentless changes



Bringing out the best

Put us through some tests

So much time lost and so many more empty places

Thinking back to a time of a heart unbroken

Boy turns to man

Girl turns to woman

But we all live in a time before the past was not our chosen

Summertime’s of glorious envious repetitive
ambitions

When things gone so astray

Speaking without words to say

Just another way to decline loves invitations

So much more than lost or just as alone as ever known



Never tears to cry

Hurting just to try

Forever and through it all I watch the light sitting all alone

In the past of the unbroken heart

Where dreams may come to live

Emptiness could fade

Tears would wash away

The unbroken heart seems so much stronger than life

But the broken heart has so much more to give

Bringing down the color of a million faces lost

Breaking without reason

Could not hold on

Lost in heavens sequel ignoring all loves cost

The unbroken heart is born so true to rise

The broken heart hurts for a while

While the unbroken hearts is fragile

The mended heart lives on.


-Babour-

WHAT THE HEART SAYS...

You touched my heart And i became a beehive And a garden of colorful flowers Blissfully weaving perfumed nectar Into golden streams of passion Love is the whole thing We are only pieces Love is the sea of no end We are just a drop of it