LOST THOUGHT

I can no longer sleep, with the waves in my head.
I’m scared to know how long I’ve been a drift.
I see, but hold my breath that it wasn’t all fake.
Were you sent to drown me.
When I already crowned you as mine.
I only wanted what I never had.
Serpents shift, Lone wolf eyes set forward.
That’s where our circle began.
Did you ever see the real me.
Do I even know you, it all seems a distant memory.
The lifelong lesson, being played out on me.
I let you pull my strings, and watched as you put on the show.
Feeling it deep inside, when the hard eyes hit my soul.
The eyes of disappointment, and disapproval.
I needed your love so badly.
Knowing that I was your message in the bottle.
How many punches I take, too make my past wrongs, right.
I try to stay a float, and seem to sink deeper.
Curiosity is breeding cats & killing barking dogs.
I can’t remember when I last felt myself.