MY DEMONS

I allowed your demons to become my demons

I allowed beautiful lies became beautiful truths

The so called “lovemaking

With no emotions and feelings

Each time left me feeling even more empty

Than the time before

Legs wrapped around the idea of love

Your demons released in me, but deeper each time



The meaningless and emotionless sex took away from me

It took away from my soul and my spirit

Your demons slowly killed me on the inside

Giving me false realities

That I started hating inside out

Hating myself and everything about me

Feeling that I was feeling what you felt for me



The mirror and I were not friendly

So much I avoided looking at her at all costs

Until one day I caught a glimpse of myself

Every emotion over came me

That crying was the only option and cure

I hated the woman that was looking back at me

Wounded, hurt and broken



I had to pick up the pieces of my spirit and soul

And put myself back together

Leaving you alone was for the better

Breaking down and falling apart

So that I could fall together and break through



Believe it or not saved my life and helped me

release those demons

Rebuilding and reinventing myself

Took some time and I’m still working on me

But I’m loving the clever man that I am becoming



For the first time in a long time

I can say that I love me

And I love what I see when I look in the mirror

For the first time I can say I’m a gentleman
And I feel it….

Your demons are no longer my demons

And I am free

Blessed and thankful to be here

I am finally happy…

And I am finally free…!!


© Babour66